wrap me in Your arms

"God sure is loving you, Lady."

Tyler lovingly said to me last night

as we were eating a delicious dinner

that I didn't have to make.

~

Michael Gunger sings a song we sing in church sometimes:

There is a God who loves me

Who wraps me in His arms

that is the place where I'm changed

And that's where I belong

[Chorus]

Take me to that place Lord

To that secret place where

I can be with You

You can make me like You

Wrap me in Your arms

Wrap me in Your arms

Wrap me in your arms

~

When we sang this a couple weeks ago

I thought, "Oh, I want to be wrapped in His arms

but I don't even know what that feels like."

~

I want to be changed; I want to be more like God.

Or

at least

I want

to want to.

But rarely is change painless.

And that's the part I don't like so much.

~

The past few months have been a struggle for me

Shoot

the past few years have been a struggle.

I love my children tremendously

I wouldn't want to know a life without any of them.

When Lexi was such a pill our first (and second!) day of school,

I was consciously thankful for her - that we have her

even in all her crabbiness.

BUT

children don't make life easy....

And when they come 4 in just a little over 5 years

(and you've already got four...)

well

things can get a little tricksy.

And so I struggle

(the past couple of weeks, especially so)

far too often in my own strength, instead of His.
~

Looking back over several days, I can see

God has been using His people to wrap me in His arms

.

A phone visit with a very dear friend

who loves me enough to tell me hard things

.

a phone call from another friend - out of the blue

with the loan of exactly what I wanted

and she had no clue I wanted it

.

a refreshing visit with a sweet lady I don't know real well

.

yet another phone call with another dear friend

.

and finally

a friend I am not particularly close with anymore

(no real reason - we've just kinda grown apart over the years)

showed up at my house with dinner yesterday

because she wanted to surprise and bless me.

.

None of these ladies knew I was having a rough time.

None of them!

On top of that - being a homebody by nature, and a busy one, at that

I can go weeks

(yes, weeks!)

never talking to another soul - save the 10 in my immediate family.

So last night when Tyler said, "God is really loving you."

I realized

this

is what it feels like to be wrapped in His arms.

~

It's humbling, really.

which (hopefully) serves to bring me just a wee bit closer

to being 'more like You'