you don't always know

The morning had started early;

I was frazzled.

again.

I fixed a half-cup of my GFIC decaf

and headed to my rocking chair.

I just wanted to 'still' a moment.

I needed peace.

uninterrupted quiet.

The door opened.

I felt frustration rising.

Can't these kids leave me in peace for two minutes??

Josiah

fresh from sleep

and completely unaware of his momma's state

headed in and climbed in my lap.

And

I held him.

And he held me.

And I stilled.

And

I realized

you don't always know what you think you know.

I thought I needed time alone

but what I really needed was a long sweet snuggle.

~

You just don't always know.