"God sure is loving you, Lady."
Tyler lovingly said to me last night
as we were eating a delicious dinner
that I didn't have to make.
Michael Gunger sings a song we sing in church sometimes:
There is a God who loves me
Who wraps me in His arms
that is the place where I'm changed
And that's where I belong
Take me to that place Lord
To that secret place where
I can be with You
You can make me like You
Wrap me in Your arms
Wrap me in Your arms
Wrap me in your arms
When we sang this a couple weeks ago
I thought, "Oh, I want to be wrapped in His arms
but I don't even know what that feels like."
I want to be changed; I want to be more like God.
to want to.
But rarely is change painless.
And that's the part I don't like so much.
The past few months have been a struggle for me
the past few years have been a struggle.
I love my children tremendously
I wouldn't want to know a life without any of them.
When Lexi was such a pill our first (and second!) day of school,
I was consciously thankful for her - that we have her
even in all her crabbiness.
children don't make life easy....
And when they come 4 in just a little over 5 years
(and you've already got four...)
things can get a little tricksy.
And so I struggle
(the past couple of weeks, especially so)
far too often in my own strength, instead of His.
Looking back over several days, I can see
God has been using His people to wrap me in His arms
A phone visit with a very dear friend
who loves me enough to tell me hard things
a phone call from another friend - out of the blue
with the loan of exactly what I wanted
and she had no clue I wanted it
a refreshing visit with a sweet lady I don't know real well
yet another phone call with another dear friend
a friend I am not particularly close with anymore
(no real reason - we've just kinda grown apart over the years)
showed up at my house with dinner yesterday
because she wanted to surprise and bless me.
None of these ladies knew I was having a rough time.
None of them!
On top of that - being a homebody by nature, and a busy one, at that
I can go weeks
never talking to another soul - save the 10 in my immediate family.
So last night when Tyler said, "God is really loving you."
is what it feels like to be wrapped in His arms.
It's humbling, really.
which (hopefully) serves to bring me just a wee bit closer
to being 'more like You'