the end of an era

A few months ago - back when things were especially

crazy

and I was hanging on by a thread

and my back was killing me

pretty much all the time

instead of only occasionally,

I decided to put away the cloth diapers

and just use paper.

Washing diapers really isn't that time consuming,

but I felt like I was adding something to my workload

that I didn't really have to.

Tony asked my if I was sad our cloth diapering days were over.

I quickly told him that they weren't over yet.

It was just a short break.

But the realization that they would

indeed

be over before terribly long did sting a little.

Last week

when I realized I wasn't stressed

every

single

day,

I pulled the diapers out,

threw away the ones that truly were unwearable

washed 'em all really good

and put one on my girl.

It made me happy.

Made Lex' pretty happy, too.

I started re-designing training pants in my head

(I never got around to making any for Lily....)

but I realized something today; 

We only go through a couple of diapers a day.
Lexi is doing super going on the potty!

They really need to be washed every other day.

It seems a little foolish

and wasteful

to run a load for 4 or 5 diapers.

And so, just like that

after 4 1/2 years

my cloth diapering days are over.

And yes, it makes me sad.