Monday, November 25, 2013

Progress


So.
Remember a few months ago, when I made my croquis?
Well, Penny was going to come over and help me take my measurements.
The day she was scheduled to come, 
was smack in the middle of my cycle.
Mid-cycle is even worse than PMS for me. 
(which is it's own 5-6 day little hell)
In addition to feeling all out of sorts,
I was so bloaty that my waist measured 1 3/4 inches bigger than my usual big measurement
so I texted her that we'd do it later.
But I was so disgusted with myself
and what those measurements would be,
that I never re-scheduled.

A few days after that,
Brandon had given Josiah a piggy back ride to the mailbox and back.
He mentioned that he was surprised how much harder the trip was
carrying that extra weight.
Josiah weighs about 54 lbs.
I said, "Yeah. That's pretty much how much extra weight I carry around all the time."

It's kind of shocking to think about. I carry around a whole extra (good sized) person. All of the time.

~
Ya'll.
I am
so
sick
of being
fat
.
~

Right about that time, a friend started occasionally linking to the Trim Healthy Mama page on facebook
so I took a peek at it.
I'd heard of the book before, but since it was pricey
(and the authors are naturally tall and thin) I hadn't bothered to really investigate.
After a few weeks of stalking their FB page and checking out a few blogs, I ordered the book.


On August 25th
I started putting into practice what I learned in Trim Healthy Mama (THM from here on out).
It's pretty much how we've eaten for the past few years, with one exception.
THM recommends only a tiny bit of fat with carbs,
whereas,
when we ate carbs,
we ate them with lots of fats.
I'd learned that fat slows the absorption of carbs, so there isn't an insulin spike.
In true Tracy form, if some is good, more is better....
In theory, that was good (and fine for a thin person)
but when you fuel your body with both fats and  (healthy) carbs in the same meal,
the fat fuels sorta gets 'locked in' while the sugar fuels get used up, making it more difficult to lose weight. 

In addition to 'single fueling'
(which, quite honestly I did most of the time anyways, simply because I don't eat a lot of carbs...)
I started working out a little.

I lost a few pounds.
I gained a few pounds.
repeat.repeat.repeat.

I got discouraged and quit adding in the exercise, but I still ate properly.
Then my friend, Michelle,
whom I met  through Elizabeth's 'with needle and thREAD sewing circle' that I like to participate in,
wrote a post about getting fit.
I joked that her pursuit of fitness would get in the way of her sewing.
(I can't seem to do both...)
and it inspired me to suck it up and work out.
Even when I didn't feel like it.


Every single day, except Sundays, since October 18th, I have worked out.
Many of those days,
I have cried.
It has been so. stinkin. hard.
I've discovered that I only have about 5 days a month where my body cooperates with me,
and the scale is kind to me,
and I actually want to exercise.
(I have got to get my hormones balanced!)
On the bad days - I can only  do 5, or, 3, or even just 2 crunches before I have to rest.
On a good day, though, I can knock out 30 without stopping.

You like my sweet shoes? $3 at a yardsale. Bought 'em for Jeremiah, then tried 'em on. ahhh. so they became mine :-)
(I never ever would have thought I would ever wear black tennies!)

I've been frustrated and discouraged
because I'm not getting the results other people are.
The THM authors post success stories just about every day on facebook.
Those stories are why I bought the book.
Now, though,
I'm just being honest here,
those stories 
burn
my
butt.
There are women who started doing THM the same time I did 
and they have lost 20 and even 30 lbs already.

I expected to lose somewhat slowly, because really,
I didn't drastically change my eating habits.
But I did expect to lose more quickly than I'm losing.
Which is silly
because it's always been very hard for me to lose weight...

Tyler keeps telling me to just keep doing what I'm doing
and eventually it'll all pay off.
And I do,
because,
I am
so
sick
of
being
fat
!
(bless his heart - he has to listen to me whine and moan and fuss and cry 25 days a month, and brag the other 5 ;-)


While I'm not losing as quickly as I'd like,
or as much as I think I should be, given how and how much (or rather, how little...) I eat,
I am losing.

In the past 3 months,
I've lost 12 lbs.
(I'd lost another 5 previously, somewhere between going to the DR for my knee in June and when I weighed when I started THM.)
I didn't take any measurements 'til Oct 28th,
so my 'inch losses' are actually greater than what I've recorded
but in the past 4 weeks,
I've lost:
upper arms - 1/2 inch R, 3/4 inch L
upper bust - 3/4 inch
bust - 1 3/4inches
 (of course. Of course this is where I'd see my biggest loss. sheesh)
waist - none yet.
(What the heck?!) (I did have a loss of 1" prior to taking measurements 10/28 though. As a seamstress, I knew my waist measurement...)
hips - 1 inch
thighs - 1 inch each
calves - 1/2 in R, 3/4 in L

(It's interesting to note that in the 4 weeks that I lost the above inches,
I only lost 2 of the 12 pounds.
Makes me wish I'd taken measurements earlier.)

Most of my shirts look sloppy on me because they are too big.
I bought a few new ones. size m (What?!)
I had to buy a new pair of jeans, even with my elastic in the waist trick, they were too big and looked horrible.
The new ones are size 12
Twelve.
I haven't worn a size 12 in a dozen years.
(maybe even longer.)

I'm not really feeling any better yet,
although, some days, when I have lots of pure deep fats (coconut oil or MCT) my brain fog is lessened a bit.
I keep hoping that my hormones will level off,
but honestly, this past month was pretty awful.
Like I'm moving in the wrong direction...
I'm taking really good notes and will make an appointment with Dr Baker in Dec or January
to change up my prescription.

My heel still bugs me fairly often, but it's tolerable;
my knee has been pretty good for the most part.
Dr Bolyard  had told me the best thing I could do for it was strengthen my leg muscles - which I'm doing...

I am doing 75 squats, 75 crunches, (I started with waaaay fewer and have worked my way up) and 50 of the daily strength training exercises in our 8 Minutes in the Morning book every day (except Sundays).
I'll continue to increase the squats and crunches by 5 every week, 'til I hit 100.
I also do several 'bursts on the bike' (hop on the bike and go all out crazy fast for 45 seconds) 
but really should do more.
I've just started doing inverted and negative pull ups last week,
so someday I can maybe do a real pull up (that doesn't involve climbing the wall with my feet ;-)
And you already know I can do a 2 minute plank ;-)
(that would, of course, be on one of my good days ~ I don't even try to plank most days)


I still have a long ways to go.
But that's where I'm at right now.
Because I finally decided
I was
- you got it -
so
sick
of being 
fat.


Special thanks to Emily, for encouraging me to buy THM,
and to Michelle, for encouraging me to exercise daily,
and of course to my family
for all of your support and help and praise and encouragement. XO

7 comments:

Michelle said...

Oh my GOODNESS Tracy!!!! You may not believe it, but you DO look fabulous. Really. I love your photos. I admire your perseverance and while you may not be "feeling" awesome you have to know that you ARE better for the exercising!! I mean, your inches lost and decreased clothing sizes tell you are doing something right! I am so impressed. THANK YOU for sharing your progress report. You are BEAUTIFUL and I mean it!!

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the momma said...

thanks, sweet friend!!

robbieniccum said...

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
I LOVE IT!!! ALL OF IT! Thank you for your encouragement to just keep going!!!! WAY TO GO!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :)You are so beautiful Girlfriend!!!!!

the momma said...

thanks!! :D Love you!

TaggTroop said...

See what I mean? You're so amazing! I'm so proud of you. And, frankly, knowing my friend Tracy...very surprised you actually BOUGHT the book! So I'm double proud of you!

terri said...

TRACY!!!! You are Looking vavavavoom!!! I KNOW how much hard work all this is...I can relate! as I sit here I have not been to the gym in over a week and I sure can tell! yes, keep up the great work, it will pay off and remember, I am RIGHT THERE with ya, having to work just as hard for the same SLOW results, but they are progress!! You is beautiful!! love you to pieces! ps...you look like lily!!! or rather lily looks like you!!!

Anonymous said...

wow-wee! you are doing sooo great! It is very hard to loose wt, how I know so well! so many inches! you have always been beautiful! and you do look like Lily! (or vise versa like Terri says) I've seen it in several pics of you and her. that chicken is really watching you do that awesome push up! (I think that is a rooster, have to go back and check)
lots of love and prayers to keep up your great determination!
mom