And then I started feeling foolish;
I don't have any major problems,
no laundry list of complaints
and yet, here we were,
driving over an hour away
to visit a doctor, of all people.
And I hate doctors.
But I was actually rather excited to go.
I haven't been 'normal' in a really long time.
(though some would say I've never been normal...)
As I told Dr Baker,
I understand that 'normal' is going to change
with children and seasons of life.
But this me,
this person that I am now,
and have been for a long time,
can't possibly be the normal that I should be.
Please, God, No!!
My biggest fear was that he would listen to me ramble
and then tell me there was nothing medically wrong me;
I'm just flawed.
Hopelessly, disgustedly flawed.
But thank goodness,
that's not what he said.
I'm hopeful that soon, with some supplements
and bioidentical hormones - created specifically for me
I'll be a new me;
a perfectly normal