Nita and Becky are two ladies I am privileged to know.
I dearly love them both,
although I haven't gotten to spend nearly enough time
with either of them.
Nita and Becky,
while both being equally wonderful,
are so different from each other.
One is structured
and very organized,
the other is not.
That sort of thing.
I've spent a good chunk of my life
being a Nita,
wishing I were a Becky.
In fact,
I've tried so hard to be a Becky,
that I've not been a very good Nita.
And what I need to do,
is recognize
that being a Nita
is every bit as wonderful
as being a Becky.
It's just different.
I can see it in the two of them;
why is it so hard to accept for myself?
I love you just the way you are - lovely, real, unique, honest, creative, thrifty, real (Oh, I already said that, but needs to be said again)... I think that most people, at some point wish they could be more like someone else. Those qualities we admire or wish we had, but really, I love you just the way you are - real. Like the Velveteen Rabbit.
ReplyDeleteOOooo I am learning that I can't be a Becky. I'm a Becka who is more of Nita who'd like to be a bit more Becky who must be content with the mix between the two that she really is.
ReplyDeletei know who Mrs. Nita is of course, but am totally clueless as to how she contrasts to Mrs. Becky in a way that is mom-like....
ReplyDeleteMrs. Becky decorates nicely, has great taste, and is hospitable and thoughtful, also she's smart. mom is all those things,too. (and mrs. nita might be too, i really don't know)
love you momma :)
they did a Renew years ago and their differences in how they do things (and curriculum choices and such) was really evident and that was mostly what I am referring to. They did another Renew last night (that I didn't get to go to) which was why they were on my mind.... and being time to choose next year's school - it's a timely reminder for me. Some of my desires for how we 'do school' are just not compatible with my style and our family. But i want it so badly that sometimes I convince myself that THIS year I can do it..... but I can't and I get discouraged and then I do LESS than I am capable of. and all because I want to be something I am not.....
ReplyDeleteAnd they are both far more polished and together than this old girl...
I love you, too, Sweetie!
I always want to be something I am not, more organized, better at directions, better at lots of things, but then, I would be them, and not me, although a better me would be nice. I think the challenge is to accept ourselves just the way we are, because if we were all the same, well, that would just be BORING! and, we are far from that! I love you just the way you are!
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